My Dark Future

The feeling of confusion,
Is all I feel these days—
Why am I like this?
Why am I this way?

It hurts so bad,
It hurts so much,
To think of my inevitably
Dark future.

I know what I’ll do.
I know what will happen.
I know you’ll hate me for it,
But please understand it was too much.

It’s just, you see,
This is too much for my small brain
To handle. Too much
For me.

That’s why I’ll end it,
With a jump or two.
All I need is one loose knot,
To me feel free.