Slice.

Slice, slice,
I feel the pain.
Slice, slice,
It feels like rain.

All wet,
All pouring,
All dripping
And roaring.

Slice, slice,
The thoughts go away.
Slice, slice,
To keep them at bay.

They swirl in my head,
Lay scattered about,
Like spiders in a web,
Not knowing the route.

Slice, slice,
In case they come back again.
Slice, slice,
They’ll go away when?

Yet another senseless poem

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
I'm not good at poems.
Can I have that sandwich?

For Harry

Poet's note: For my dear friend who's experiencing problems in life. Thank you for being there with me when I needed you most, and now it's my turn. <3

Voices, voices, lying to you
Drown, they scream, in blood too
What can you do but to obey?
Down goes the knife, that's what they say.

Voices, voices, screaming at you
Hang, they yell, and slide the blade too
What can you do but to be convinced?
Hurtful words they carefully mince.

Voices, voices, shouting at you
What they shout you think is true.
You feel insanity trickling blood
Drowning you inside the flood

A hand pushes through the darkness
Reaching to you, the blinding brightness
Don't give up, a voice whispers
The light on your closed eyes kisses

I wish I could hug you throughout the night
Just so I can make sure that you're alright
You mean so much more than I could ever say
My life for you I would willingly pay

I wish I could let you cry on me
Crying's not a sin, it's meant to be
We're born vulnerable, to build hard shells
Only to be crushed inside dark dark hells.

You'll be alright, you'll be okay
I really promise, I truly say
I try to mend a broken mind
A broken heart takes a long long time

I can help, you need to trust me
I know you're real, no need to plea
Don't give up, I support you
Three words Harry, I love you.

Please don't say you can't go on
I know inside you're very strong
You can chase away the voices
With a little help from sideline choices

Goodnight, good luck, we'll hold till tomorrow
A step at a time, no need for the sorrow
We'll simply ignore those who just mock at us
In the end, what matters is all we ask --

Freedom.

Today

Is it all in my head

Is it all in my heart

Will you say the unsaid

Is this the end or the start

Will I ever un-see

What you did to me

My eyes are bloodshot

From the memory of the onslaught

Will I ever be able to

Leave the past behind

And move on to a brand new day

Today

Even after all this time

Trusting’s not an option

All I see is no honesty

In anybody’s eyes

I see a world of loneliness

Spread in front of me

I see a world of nothingness

Telling me I just can’t be

Will I ever be able to

Leave the past behind

And move on to a brand new day

Today

*this, and One Day, are songs (no tune - yet) that I wrote last summer :>

One Day

All my life, I waited for it

All my life, I saw it coming

All the time, I looked forward to it

I never dreamed it could be true

All my life, all the time

I looked down on everyone

But then he came and broke it all

Now I know what it’s like to fall

When I hit the ground

Collapse without a sound

Never wondering why

I started falling anyway

All my life, all the time

I looked down on everyone

But then he came and broke it all

Now I know what it’s like to fall

In a blink of an eye

You can fall but never die

And one day…

You’ll throw it all away

All my life, all the time

I looked down on everyone

But then he came and broke it all

Now I know what it’s like to fall

All my life, I waited for it

All my life, I saw it coming

All the time, I looked forward to it

I never dreamed it could be true

All my life, all the time

I looked down on everyone

But then he came and broke it all

Now I know what it’s like to fall

Will you?

I'm falling, flying, drowning fast
Bodies around me, I'm the last
What's the best that you can do?
Are you going to watch me too?

Am I just entertainment for you?
Somewhere high above, a small dove coos.
The sign of freedom, love and peace
Oh the irony, the air I missed.

Will you save me from the blood?
From the tidal waves and the floods?
What's the worst that you can do?
Are you going to watch me too?

Depression,a cancerous tumor in me,
Waiting for the chance to set me free
Free from earthly and mortal pain
Blood drips like falling rain

Thoughts incoherent, and death combines
Time and actions never rewind
Words cannot be retracted, eaten or withdrawn
A final fight, the pallbearers mourn.

Will you pull me up from the deep?
The deathlike trance, the fatal sleep
Will you save me from the floods?
From tidal waves made of blood.

Not Long Now

Distance never seperates
Two hearts that really care

For when I close my eyes and dream
You always will be there

You're in my mind in every second
Every single day

Sometime soon we will
No longer be so far away

Running through scenarios
That might or might not be

Seeing you
Imagining your smile when you see me

A fire lights my heart
As I imagine us so close

To look into your eyes
Is what I want to do the most

But until then
I'll have to use my patience and hold in

The longing and the ache and love
That fill me to the brim

Sometime missing you is simply
Far too much to take

Dreams are all I have for now
But from dreams I awake


But soon we'll be together
In the flesh, not in a dream
It's not long now.
Not long now...